i’m tired. but this has been bothering me. like REALLY bothering me. but there are just some people that really rub me the wrong way. in my eyes, it’s like they relish stomping on other people and tearing them straight down. and for the worse part, is just seeing how they really just don’t care about what damage they’re causing. it’s people like that that make me question humanity. really. to me it really seems that they’re just so freaking callous by whatever/whomever has hurt them so deeply in the past. that they can’t even feel what they’re doing to other people.

RaChaEl RoZ. bless her heart. never thought i would ever sit down and ask her for advice. we just bitch at each other and love it. but not tonight. she reminded me that grace can come from understanding. then that gave me a flashback to another convo, where grace was extended prior to understanding. i guess with this person i’m going to try that out. to extend grace before understanding. i have a feeling it’s going to hurt. but thinking about it now, something/someone must have hurt them so bad for them to be so abrasive and not to care.

i really don’t understand why people would flock to a person like this though. that just boggles my mind.

people have been blogging about change. when i came back from break there was change. and i am a little disheartened with what change i see. i’m just reminded of how some metals need to have impurities burned off before the purest and most perfect product can be exposed. i feel like things are that way. i really do feel like i’m distancing myself from certain people/situations/things on purpose not because i want to, but because i’m just so put off by them/it.

pms rant. right here.