i am just obsessed with the genius of justin vernon. just obsessed. a little with bon iver, a little with his self record, and A LOT with deyarmond edison.

and i am alive! 5 finals in two days is just brutal. just saying. the past few days have just been draining physically, emotionally, and mentally. now that the academic stress is somewhat over, the emotional stress still remains. please forgive the vagueness of the statements i am about to make. but here it goes and read into it however way you like.

my stay here at apu has been nothing but a huge blessing dumped onto me. it’s so easy to call the good things blessings, but when difficult situations arise, calling those instances blessings become more difficult. more difficult, but they are what they are. blessings. difficult situations never fail to wear the spirit down and not going to lie, that’s happened a few times this week. i’m worn down, but i feel more alive than ever. it’s through these times  i have seen the beauty of the people i so undeservingly call my friends. so thank you for the inconvenience. thank you for testing my patience. and thank you for showing me the good people are capable of showing through showing the opposite. at this point, i honestly don’t care who thinks what. i recognize my many flaws i am completely at peace with the person i am and am becoming.

i never really figured this out until now. but it’s so reassuring knowing that we serve an omniscient God. we never have to worry about how things are presented to Him and if He really sees the truth because He knows already. He knows how things really are. He knows how things will be.  and that’s really the only opinion i really answer to.  so keep talking because the view is good from up here.